Monday, January 30, 2006

Feelin' better - almost

big smiles

So we are feeling a bit better - again. We are both still full of snot & I think my stupid allergies have kicked in (wtf?!) but at least our feverish achy sore throats have been curbed. Poor little thing was so stuffed up one night we had to sit in the bathroom with the shower on full blast just to get some moisture up her schnoz.

pretty baby

She seemed to be so much better yesterday that we went on an excursion to the National Gallery to look at the pretty pictures & the view from the cafe.


Of course our favorite piece of art was this.

big baby head

Kinda creepy n'est pas?
After that the babies were pretty worn out so they had a snooze in the red room.

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Friday, January 27, 2006

what hell is this?

daddy wrecked us Posted by Picasa

we are sick

worse than before


Monday, January 23, 2006


So sweet cheeks was 11 weeks old yesterday which is kind of freaking me out. Everyone (you know, they) said that time would fly so fast & I have to agree. It feels like I'm playing catch up all the time & the days are gone before I know it with of course not much to show. Uh ya honey, today I fed the baby & made myself lunch & I would've done a load of laundry except for the fact that our dryer is still not fixed. Ya you heard me. Broken appliance. Make that two of them. Both our washer & dryer managed to die about two weeks ago. Not good when there's mounds of poopy spit-up covered clothing to be washed. Not to mention we were in the middle of making the switch to cloth diapers. Good times people, good times. So now the washer is fixed but we are still waiting for a new drum for the dryer which is taking forever since it is some special extra capacity one or something. I hate air-dried clothing. I know that's completely the opposite of the environmentally responsible cloth-diapering persona I am espousing to be but I absolutely love my dryer sheets. That warm fresh out of the dryer softness beckons to me whilst the stiff n'crunchy fabric resulting from a lack of Bounce just makes me cringe. Plus I can't imagine how it feels on the baby's sensitive little tushie. Yuck.

Besides the dryer issue, the cloth diapers are working out pretty well. We bought 2 dozen pre-folds & 2 covers plus an all-in-one which I love. We need a couple more covers & I'd like a few more of the Fuzzi-Bunz but the amount of pre-folds seems to be working out well as we only use them at home. It's just more convenient to use the disposables when we're out & about & I've got no room in my backpack (screw the diaper bag thing) for a plastic bag full of dirty diapers. The cloth ones sure make her butt look big but they've also helped clear up the diaper rash a bit so I guess that's a pretty good payoff for having a wide load. Too bad I can't say the same for myself.

The first month after the birth I thought all my dreams (unrealistic fantasies) of bouncing back into some form of relatively decent shape would come to fruition. I mean, I'd been doing so good for the second half of the pregnancy going to yoga class, body-flow class, walking the dog every day & even swimming from time to time. Then in the first three or four weeks afterwards the pounds were melting away as I sweat copiuous amounts of excess fluids out of my pores every night. Hell, one night I lost 6 pounds - it was freaking awesome. But with all the sweating & the breastfeeding came The Hunger. I could eat all the time & for a while I did. Then I noticed the halt of the 6 pounds a night weight loss & decided that hey, maybe I shouldn't be eating every 1.5 hours. I've started going back to the gym for a class once or twice a week & man are they ever hard. Especially all those damn core exercises. Ugh. This past Monday we tried a new mommy-baby exercise class at Starr Gymnastics which mostly involved more of those lovely core exercises on the ball. It would've been great except the bun decided to cry for about 85% of the class. Good thing she likes to be bounced on the ball. I also try to get out for a walk as often as we can but some days are too cold & other days Freyja's just too fussy to attempt bundling her up. The girl hates the snowsuit plus the hat & mitts might as well be squirrel feces or some other equally noxious substance. Top that off with being strapped into the car seat & we've got baby meltdown. So the walks don't always happen. We went yesterday but had to cut it short because I thought we were going to have a case of shaken baby syndrome on our hands with the crappy condition the sidewalks were in (the roads weren't much better). I've also gone on a couple of runs so far & they weren't too bad except for the sore boobs. I'd like to do more but our schedule or rather, lack of one is making it difficult.

So.... what this means is that I am uncomfortable with how I feel & how I look. I never expected to be able to pull off a Heidi Klum & I know it all takes time but I just feel blah. I don't want to spend money I'm not making on new clothes even though I need some because nothing fits right anymore. I'm a whole bunch of different sizes - stuff that fits on the waist is huge in the legs & shirts that fit my chest look boxy all the way down. I've tried going to Old Navy & checking out some sales at the mall but the only stuff that feels like it fits are sweat pants. Though one can never have too many pairs of comfy lounging house pants / leisure suits what 'd really like is a pair of jeans that don't give me muffin top or on the other end of the spectrum end up looking like this. As for tops, my boobs are so freaking big that I either look very matronly (Speaking of matronly this is what I found googling for an example. Very weird.) or super slutty. Though I'm sure Calvin & his buddies would like nothing better than to have my cleavage spill over it ain't happening. At least until I pull one out to feed the little monkey. Then the show's on.

Speaking of boobs, we went to our first La Leche League meeting last weekend to see if we could get some help. Of course there was a snowstorm & an accident blocking my route so we were late. It was what I expected & yet not. There were the older babies that looked almost ready for school & a couple of really granola moms but for the most part it was just like the other mommy group I've gone to but with muffins & fruit to boot. It sounded like a lot of the other mothers had experienced the same problems as we are now with the thrush & the Reynaud's. I didn't really get any more info from them as to what to do that I haven't already read on the internet but it helped knowing that there were others out there who managed to continue breastfeeding despite the problems. I didn't get a chance to ask someone to check our latch because I was already running late to meet some friends for shopping. Of course by the time I made it there with all the snow & crap they were already done & gone. Sorry guys. I think we'll try another meeting this week & stay for the whole thing this time.

Last week thanks to the wonderful Geoff & Katherine we had an evening out sans baby. It was good & weird & bad & tasty. We went to A Taste of the Glebe which was basically like a food & booze show but without needing tickets to the separate tastings. The community centre was set up with tables from many of the restaurants in the Glebe offering delicious samples from their menus. Surprisingly I think I liked the haggis from the Oak the best. That and the dates wrapped in bacon. mmmmmm. And of course the wine. Anyway, the place was packed & we were stuffed by the end of the evening. It was strange with both of us being away from Freyja for that length of time. I've gone out a couple of times to the gym leaving her alone with Calvin which is hard enough but this time I found myself not only worrying about her but also about our poor babysitters in the event of her freaking out. We got back to their place just over 2 hours later & she was sweetly passed out in Katherine's arms. Apparently she did have a bit of a meltdown before finally falling asleep & I'm sure it was worse than they let on so thank you both again for putting up with the little monster all the while you were trying to get the Timbit to sleep himself.

A few other firsts have occured lately. Yesterday I managed to give her a bath all by myself & there was no screaming afterwards. Usually I wait for buddy to get home so he can get some quality bonding time in. Sadly because we have no real schedule the babe has been going without bathing as often as she should (not as gross as you think & her skin gets dry if we do it too often anyway). Plus whenever we do the tag team bathing she freaks out afterwards. Yesterday I wrapped her up in extra towels & snuggled to keep her warm before moisturizing her skin. No screaming, no fussing. Nice.

In the past few days I've also been able to put her down for a nap before she's fully asleep & she's managed to pass out within just a few minutes all by herself. Well, with her trusty hair dryer cd of course. Nothing like a little white noise from the hair dryer to make the bun zone right out. That & her newly discovered hands which she now sucks on like some ravenous vampire. She's also become quite adept at blowing bubbles & producing copious amounts of drool. I'm just hoping it's not some early teething episode coming on - my boobs cannot handle that right now.

So that's first cold, vaccines, babysitting experience, scream-free bath from mommy, decent naps plus a couple of 5-6 hour nights of straight sleep, first LLL meeting & tomorrow, first gay cowboy movie. What a difference a few weeks make.

Sunday, January 22, 2006


So the overflowing mucus is almost gone. We are both still waking up in the mornings kind of stuffed up which pisses her off, espcially when I try to use the snot sucker but at least it's better than last week.

Oh who am I kidding? I have no energy or brain power for this. I am loosing my blogging powers & my posts are becoming increasingly lame. So as usual I will put up pictures to distract you from my lameness.


hey dudes

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Monday, January 16, 2006


We've both been ill. At first I thought it was the after effects of the vaccinations but when both of us came down with the sniffles, mild fever & overall yucky feeling, I figured that since I didn't get a shot in the butt it was probably something else. So sweet cheeks & I have been drowning in snot for the past little while - hence the lack of posts. By the time I get her to bed my brain is done for & I can't write for shit. Tomorrow I'll post more pics & a proper update. I promise. Right now it's time for sleeping.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Post shot hell

Today it's gone from this

boo hoo

To this

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Thank goodness for Tempra, the salve of my salvation. Also for my huge stash of ibuprofen for the headache that comes along with the bleeding of my ears (& boobs) due to the soul-shattering screams of my little fusspot. I haven't been able to leave her alone all day & she's fussing about everything, especially my boobs which have apparently turned to acid producing orbs of crap. Don't think I'll be making it to the gym tonight. Oh well... guess I'll turn to some sugary treat to make it all feel a bit better & of course, sabotage my New Year's Resolutions. Because I've been doing soooo well on all of them so far. Especially that ass-licking patience with the dog thing.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Healthy gal

Doctor's appointment today. Freyja daya doodle weighs 11.9 pounds at 9 weeks. That's 75th %ile weight compared to her 40th %ile height. So she's still eating well despite the boob problems. I've been told to use some polysporin on the cracks, try a nipple shield & perhaps go to a La Leche League meeting to double check the latch. We also got her first immunization shot today so we gave her some Tempra half an hour before & a leg masasge (recommended in the class on Monday). She took it all really well, only frowning a wee bit as the needle went in, even smiling at the doctor before & afterwards. Now that we're home she's getting fussy so we've given her another dose of the Tempra. The grumpiness could be due to the fact that we had to wake her up from a couple of naps rather than the needle. Poor little thing.

We also got to use her brand new health card today. Too bad it was already demagnetized. How the hell does a card get demagnetized in the mail?


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Monday, January 09, 2006

Rub a dub dub

Today we started taking an infant massage class at the Glebe Community Centre. Very nice but the bun fell asleep so she didn't get the massage I've been promising her.

Oh man, I'm soooo freaking tired right now I can't even describe my day. This is pathetic so here's some more pictures. Baby likes to bounce.

Hey there folks

I am so serious. Posted by Picasa

Sunday, January 08, 2006

2 Months Old


I can't believe it's been two entire months since doodle bug came along. She is the light of my life & is so freaking cute my heart just about explodes when she gives me a smile. Here's some of the cuteness for you.



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Friday, January 06, 2006

So I was saying....

So yesterday's post was all about my trials & tribulations regarding breastfeeding. Oh woe is me, that sort of thing. Of course I hit something to navigate away from it & didn't save any changes so I lost about an hour's worth of typing. Oh woe is me again.

Basically I was wallowing in self-pity about my frustration level due to the continuing pain almost every time we feed. I assume it's because we still have thrush. At least as far as I can tell. It could also be Raynaud's syndrome which sucks about as much. We have a doctor's appointment next week for the 2 month vaccinations so we'll see what she can do for us. We are trying to introduce a bottle with only limited success - the howls & high-pitched girly screams in protest are ear & soul shattering to say the least. What can I say, she's a boob girl. Anyway, I could go on & on about this but I'm tired & my brain seems to be only capable of processing the television at the moment.

Every day I think I'll have the time to write my next great post & every day I am overwhelmed by how much energy this little bun leaches from me. For now I just have to thank everyone for all the lovely baby & x-mas gifts we've received over the past 2 months. We are trying to get all those thank-you cards out, but we seem to keep running out of time everyday. They're coming, we promise.

Bjorn to nap Posted by Picasa

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Best gift ever

We can hardly wait until her mouth is big enough for this.

Freyja's new chew toy. Posted by Picasa

So.... some of you may have thought that the "Kiss my ass Candida" title meant that the thrush was gone. Well my friends, you would be mistaken. At least as far as I can tell. What do I know? Besides the pain that still accompanies every feed and the diaper rash that still comes & goes. Fuckity fuck fuck fuck. (Hello sailor mouth! [I wonder, is this offensive to sailors, this potty mouth reference? If so apologies to sailors everywhere.])

Crap! I just wrote a whole bunch of stuff & I lost it. Crap!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

More pics

blue eyes

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Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Monday, January 02, 2006


Hey there internets. How you doin'?

I don't normally do resolutions since they seem to ultimately fail but I figured this would be a good year to at least make a half-hearted attempt to better myself in some fashion. So here's my list.
  • Post something everyday, at least a photo.
  • Eat more vegetables & way less sugar.
  • Start running again so I can do the National Capital 10km race without hacking up a lung.
  • Return phone calls & e-mails sooner rather than later.
  • Start using the library again.
  • Re-learn how to sew & knit so I can actually do something useful.
  • Try not to loose patience with the dog so much, especially when he's licking his ass.
I'd like to put more down, but I think these are the only ones I'm reasonably capable of managing. Then again, that ass licking thing is really disgusting in it's incessant lappiness. Ick! We'll see how that one goes. Right now he's whining from an apparent stomach ache due to eating garbage for the past hour (thanks for letting the dog out Calvin). Idiot.

So that's it for now as I have to go let the dog outside again so he can crap out all the garbage he just consumed...

Here's your daily photo.

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Sunday, January 01, 2006

Happy 2006

From the happy family Posted by Picasa